update

heres to a year. a year gone and a heart not yet healed. i wonder if when i wrote thats last blog i had any idea that i could survive this long still loving that one mistake. i would tell you that im in japan now. but if your june or nathan you already know that, and no one else knows this blog. i suppose i should mention that im actually watching a show about tigers on japanese cable at the moment so i am a bit distracted and my blog-worthy angst had diminished significantly since i sat down to wrtie this. what can i say, tigers are super cute. unlike me.... i wonder when i got to be so ashamed of being emo? i used to be proud of a really depressing blog, i used to read over them and think things like : "damn! i sure can write when im upset" now i feel like i should appologize in advance for being depressed, i fell lke i should be warning you that this blog has to do with me being upset and all that and then crack a joke about being lame and emotional.... sigh. this is a blog! i mean, for christs sake. i dont even know if june or nathan read this anymore... its been more than a year since i last wrote and i shouldnt care anyways.. you two, if youre tuning in are my two closest freinds. .. sigh... and june. you need to hold your horses.. or i gess ill update later since youre giving me a hard time about writing this. okay june. im done, we can go.

to be continued....